For All You Have Left is due out February 11! But I thought I'd share with you a chapter from the novel a little early!
This particular scene is where Logan's (Lada's) sister, Hannah, finds a piece of Logan's past that Logan has been hiding in her nightstand drawer.
Please enjoy! And don't forget to look for For All You Have Left on Amazon and online at other book retailers Feb. 11!
“Lada, where’s your lotion?” Hannah asks, busting into my apartment.
Hannah’s always been a fixture in every place I’ve ever had. She’s never been an actual roommate, just more of an honorary one, I guess. This new apartment is no exception. She has a key. She uses it liberally.
“My hands feel like dead lizards.” Her voice trails behind her as she makes a beeline for the back rooms.
I scrunch up my face. “Eww. Why do they have to be dead?”
She doesn’t answer me. Instead I hear her rummaging through my drawers in my bedroom. My bedroom! I jump up and run to my room. But right when I spot her, I freeze in the doorway. I know she has already seen it. She’s bent over, with her back to me. She’s staring at something—it—inside my nightstand drawer.
I just stand there and watch her—waiting, for what seems like an eternity.
Eventually, she pulls it out from the drawer and turns back toward me. “Lada,” she says, holding up a marriage license.
I take in a deep breath and let out an audible sigh.
“I didn’t know you still had this,” she softly says.
I don’t say anything. There’s nothing I can say really.
“Lada, you’ve got to move on,” she pushes out, gently. “I know you love him, but he can’t keep coming in and out of your life like this. You can’t let him. You can’t do this forever, Lada. You have to live.”
She looks at me with two sad eyes—those same sad eyes that she always gives me when this same subject comes up.
“I am living, Hannah,” I force out. “I’m living. I eat. I sleep. I smile every day.”
Her sad eyes don’t waver. “Lada,” she says and then follows it with a long sigh. “You know what I mean. You’ve gotta let him go. You’ve gotta let someone else in.”
I stare at her for a moment before I lower my face. “It’s not that easy, Hannah.”
A minute passes in the quiet, and then I hear her voice again.
“All I’m asking you to do is try. That’s all anyone is asking you to do.”
My eyes catch and get stuck in the red polish on my toenails. “I do try,” I whisper.
It’s true. I try. I don’t try in the way she wants me to try, but I do try. I try to tell myself that it is possible to move on—that it is possible to actually live two happy lives in the span of one lifetime. I try to push the thoughts, the dreams, the nightmares from my old life to the back of my mind. But ultimately, I know what moving on means. It means never going back, and that terrifies me more than anything. I know Hannah wants me to forget, but I can’t forget. I don’t want to forget. If I forget, I lose it all twice. I want to remember. I have to remember.
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Back Cover Summary
Logan Cross met her first love on the playground when she was nine. She married him at eighteen. But life had different plans for Logan. And now at twenty-two, she is in the midst of starting over when Jorgen Ryker moves in next door. A paramedic, Jorgen seems normal, and he's definitely easy on the eyes, but Logan still has her reservations—and her secrets. Can she put her old life aside to start anew? And what big secret is she hiding that Jorgen might already know?
Set in small-town Missouri, For All You Have Left is a love story with an unexpected twist centering around three lives, two great loves and one epic journey in learning to love again.
I write about rain on tin roofs, gravel roads, old trucks with holes in the floorboards and small-town summer nights. I grew up on a farm in a little Midwestern town. Now, I live in Kansas City, Mo., with my weatherman husband.
Laura Miller's first contemporary romance novel, Butterfly Weeds, hit the Amazon Best-Seller's List and Top 100 in October 2012. The sequel to Butterfly Weeds, My Butterfly, released in June 2013. For All You Have Left, By Way of Accident, When Cicadas Cry and A Bird on a Windowsill followed. Look for The Life We Almost Had, available now!